feelings as actions

eating marked down watermelon slices in a parking lot at 9pm.

rain jackets that change from green to dinosaurs.

speeding through a closed street at dawn.

foot rolling in line for donuts.

using four fingers as a comb to flip hair.

rubbing lips together and meeting eyes with a stranger.

dropping a bottle of iced tea in line for groceries.

holding so many things you use your leg to brace them.

tripping over tree roots and sliding down a hill.

a hug after someone has cried for a long time.

stopping to check out the flowers but the sun is in your eyes.

listening to two voices surrounded by a thousand people.

laughing to yourself in a crowded area.

chugging coffee in an empty parking lot with crisp spring air in the middle of February clear skies.

singing in the car watching cute feet tap and feeling the wet spring air.

watching the computer screen feeling dry and heavy lights lots of typing and yawning.

meeting eyes and smiling at a hip girl with cute jean jacket fashion.

things i tell myself when i am hopeless:

x someone will always love you if they dont it isnt real or meant to be

x people hurt you because you are a reflection of what is hurting them

x there is always a new beginning around the corner especially when you think this is it

x the right people will accept you love you and try to help you

x the right people will never try to push you from happiness if they do they do not have your best interest in mind

x you can do whatever you decide in the moment nothing is ever lost you can always start new any day

x you have been through more than you thought you could handle

x you can handle a lot more still